State of Me



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(Clockwise: I made good use of the open bar at my dad’s wedding//Love South Florida beaches & my brother//Saying goodbye to three incredible world-changers//Celebrating with the LiNK fam as one of our own married her perfect match.)

Whoa guys. It’s been a long time since I’ve written. And while I’d usually apologize, I don’t feel the need to this time. It’s been a super crazy couple months, or if I’m being honest – just a really crazy year so far. But, in just a few days we hit the 1/2 way point and I’m confident the second half of 2014 is going to be so much better.

Let me update you on some stuff that has happened and is happening right now, as well as some exciting plans I have for the future.

First off, just a little less than 2 months ago one of my biggest nightmares became a reality. One of our nomad teams was in a fatal car accident in Texas. To say it felt like the world completely stopped when I got that phone call would be an understatement. It’s been a really hard couple months, trying to find a way to get back to work as usual as well as mourning the loss of these incredible people. Immediately after the accident, all the nomads came back to HQ and we spent an entire week celebrating, mourning, honoring, crying, laughing, and mostly just leaning on each other. Things are a little easier now (read: I’m not crying in my office as often as I once was) but it’s still incredibly difficult and I don’t know exactly how I’m going to move forward. But I’m going to figure it out, huh? Thank goodness for the amazing people I’m surrounded by. I honestly can’t even imagine what their families are going through because the pain we feel must only be a fraction of what they’re dealing with every single day.

A side effect of the accident for me personally has been some serious anxiety… I think I’ve always struggled with anxiety, but this situation has really brought it out in a way I never expected. I don’t know why exactly I finally found the motivation to start therapy earlier this year, though instead of question it I am just so so grateful because I didn’t even realize how much I would be needing it. Somehow I’ve never felt more crazy or more normal in my life? I could go on forever about this but I’m gonna keep it short. Trust me. You don’t want to hear about the nights I stay up in bed, panicking about everything. Though, prepare to hear about this journey over the next few months (or years). Talking about it is helpful for me. Oof. Moving on.

Some happy stuff has also been going in the land of Chelsea.

I got to go home for 10 days! Ahhhh. The timing on the trip could not have been better, because after suffering a tragic loss, there is literally nothing quite as good as being able to hug your dad and brother and best friends. Though, the trip was not without stressors of it’s own. While my trip was a vacation, I was also there for my dad’s wedding! Luckily everything went off without a hitch – and even though I was worried that it was going to be totally awkward – it actually ended up being so much fun. My dad looked so happy and his bride was glowing and there was an open bar. What else could you ask for? It was one of my most favorite trips home and not just because I discovered that a whiskey sour topped with a shot of peach schnapps is the best drink in the world but because I got to see Jackie & Steve (my Indiana family) and because Keith FINALLY got to meet all of my best friends. Oh, and of course I ate lots of good Cuban food.

Probably the happiest thing happening right now is that Keith and I are moving! We’ve had a great 18 months living with a roommate, and while our current apartment does hold a lot of sentimental value to us, we are so excited to move into our new studio and start a home together. It’s going to be a serious decrease in size but I can’t wait to figure out cool ways to make it feel like cozy and not cluttered. Ah! We sign our lease tomorrow and will be fully moved in by Monday night (at the latest). I plan on documenting the whole process and the first few months of settling in and making it cute on a budget. But just to give you a quick rundown of the new place: It’s in downtown Long Beach, it was built in 1928, we’re on the 3rd floor, there are wood floors, aaaand it’s way under our goal price. I can’t wait to get to know a whole new neighborhood, binge shop at Goodwill & Ikea, and be able to walk around pants-less whenever I want!

Wow. That was a lot of words. Is anyone still with me? I promise to stray away from word-vomit posts like this all the time but every now and then they’re needed. So I hope you don’t hate me too much. I just felt the need to update this world on what’s been going on so I can move into the next month with a fresh start and really get back into this whole blogging thing. I’ve missed it bunches.

Anyway, enough about me – how are you all? Comment below and tell me what has been happening in your worlds!

PS: I almost forgot tell you about my plans for the future! I’m currently in the process of launching two new features: “Long Beach Loves Breakfast” and “Bad Bangs.” Stay tuned! I’m SO excited about both.

(This post is inspired by Dani’s recent prompt over at Sometimes Sweet.